I am an Old Lady!

As Becky so kindly pointed out the day after my birthday- I was now closer to 40 than I am to 30. And I just can't believe it. My little Grandma Conley once told me that she thinks she is 16 in her head and she is always a little surprised by the little old lady when she looks in the mirror. I think I am that way a little as well. I just can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that I am an adult- with children! I have a real job with very real responsibilities. This summer we will have our 10 year anniversary. How is that possible? Aren't we still trying to get to know each other?

And yet no anxiety about age. I am so proud of the changes I have made, the things I have learned. I like me better at 35 than me at 20. The only problem is how fast my boys are aging. Their childhood seems to be whizzing past in the blink of an eye. I don't mind getting older- it is the boys that tears me up.

And so I had a great 35th birthday. It was just your usual every day in my life right now. I went to Coen's class in the morning and made zucchini bread with the kids. Work in the afternoon. And Indian food that night. A pretty great day in my pretty great life.

Any time I am feeling a little old I just remind myself that Alma has childhood friends with kids in college. Now he is an OLD man!

I also have some thoughts to share after this weekend. But I just took my nighttime muscle relaxant (yes the back is only getting worse) and am feeling a little woozy- so time to stop writing.